A lot of women are scared to tell their stories.  I know I was.  At least in the beginning.  That is, until I "got away".  But I still have not completely "got away". What I mean by that is, my abuser is my child's father.  That means that I will always have to deal with him.  That means I will always have to have some type of relationship with him.  I will always have to manage his narcissistic and manipulating personality.  He still wants us to get "back together".  I have always told him that he needed to change before I ever thought of doing that. But he never does. Then a lot of us women always ask ourselves will he change?  I know in my case I have come to the point where I can definitely answer "no", he will not. 

My story began in 2009. When we started dating, I thought I could "fix" him.  I thought if I loved him enough I could help him through the struggles he was going through at the time. I have always had that type of personality where I want to help someone even if it ends up hurting me in the end.  This time it definitely hurt me.  It left scars so deep I am not completely healed and I don't know if I ever will be.